This Month of April #StreamTeam #ad

This month (April) is a special month because it’s my birthday.  I’ll be 49 years old.  April is also earth month; it’s supposed to me a month in which we bring our attention on matters pertaining to earth where we can educate ourselves, reflect on what we are doing right or wrong, and then learn to appreciate what we have … just a little more.  It’s a time in which we should be experiencing eye-opening facts; however, the only eye-opening fact that I am experiencing is the fact that it has been 3 months since my mom’s passing.

Disclosure: I have been compensated to share this post. The opinions on this blog are my own.

Whoa; “how does this fact pertain to Netflix” you ask?  Hang on to your chair, that’s what I’ll be explaining next.

In no way, shape, or form am I saying that Netflix is helping to perpetuate the pain that I continue to feel since my mom passed on.  Au contraire, Netflix has helped me indirectly by just being Netflix:

  1.  For my state of mind it has been a distraction.  I find something, anything new or old to watch and pretty much just let it play (in the background) like white-noise if you will.  I continue doing whatever it is I am doing, while Netflix provides me company.
  2.  For my entertainment it has been excellent.  Binge-watching is something that I am happy to do with certain shows.  For example, Downton Abbey on April 6th (coincidentally my birthday) had its latest season become available … two nights later and I was done watching it!  It’s a break from reality … from the pain I am feeling!

…. last, but not least ….

3.  For reminiscing purposes; remembering happy moments in my life, Netflix unknowingly provided the perfect movie for me.  ‘Night Train to Lisbon’ appeared under my Netflix profile, as an option to view.  Due to my Portuguese background; naturally, I was drawn to it and decided to watch it.  While the movie was of interest to me, I can’t really say that it would be equally of interest to others.  You see, out of everything possible in the world, this movie called out to ME and while I watched the story unfold I noticed that the story itself was no longer the focal point.  For me, the focal point was focusing on the fact that this movie had been filmed exactly across the street from my Grandmother’s house in Lisbon!  Incredibly, I noticed the building in the movie and I was taken back to every summer of my youth!  I had spent almost every summer (2 months at a time) of my youth!  I was very familiar with the majority of the locations the movie was filmed at.  Oh the memories!  Suddenly, I realized just how much I missed those days.  I was sad … and happy … and then a smile came out of the depths of me and spread across my face.  It became happy memories.  I accepted that they had made me feel sad because I knew I could not have those moments back.  Those moments submersed themselves into the sea that is my past.  This ‘sea of memories’ (my past) can’t be re-lived; however, I can always choose to ‘dive’ into it whenever I want to remember any of them.

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