I have been absent from blogging; for a while, and I thought I should explain to you why it is. I have been not feeling very well and my health has been up and down; fluctuating between good to poor and I am saddened by it all. Sometimes I feel a little bit down, other times I feel weird. I just want to take time for myself to relax and to really look at life in a different way. I haven’t really been focusing on anything other than family issues or my own personal health. I also have my mum; as you know isn’t doing too well either. On top of this I have many issues that I’m dealing with in and out of the country. I have some issues to do with property, homes, lawyers, bills and taxes in and out of the country. There are so many matters that I have to look out for and take care of that; quite frankly, I am tired … I am physically, mentally, and emotionally completely drained and sometimes I just sit here looking at the screen and I realize I have nothing inside of me left.
Health wise, I’ve had my 6 month follow up and they have found an insignificant cyst, but a cyst nonetheless. We’ll be monitoring it. I shouldn’t worry but I do.
There are no doubts; I am behind on my posts. I used to look forward to this all, and lately I have been completely disinterested in anything. My goodness, I feel like I could stare at the wall for hours on end and not even realize what I was doing! It’s difficult; I know I miss having that energy, that interest, that excitement, and having that happiness that I used to have when I was blogging on a consistent basis. Unfortunately, I don’t really know if I can get that back. I am hoping that I will, but I am I am tired, and I know that I will be tired regardless of anything I do. I miss you guys. I miss having that connection.
Sadly, I believe that I have become lost, and I am not really sure if I can find myself right now. I’m in disbelief at how tired I feel, and upset with myself because I don’t even know how else to explain how I feel except for saying how tired I am! It’s actually very sad.
Perhaps I am making a mountain out of a hil; however, the truth is I just feel tired all of the time. I am drained, I am lost, I am empty, and that that’s probably why I can’t seem to function like I did before. All that I can think of is how empty I feel and how I have nothing in me right now.
So I apologise. I promise that I’ll be back on a regular basis when I feel like I can get everything sorted. Until that time, I will post what I can and hope that you comment when you can, show me love and support, and miss me lots!