Do You Miss Me?

I have been absent from blogging; for a while, and I thought I should explain to you why it is.  I have been not feeling very well and my health has been up and down; fluctuating between good to poor and I am saddened by it all.  Sometimes I feel a little bit down, other times I feel weird.  I just want to take time for myself to relax and to really look at life in a  different way.  I haven’t really been focusing on anything other than family issues or my own personal health.  I also have my mum; as you know isn’t doing too well either.  On top of this I have many issues that I’m dealing with in and out of the country.  I have some issues to do with property, homes, lawyers,  bills and taxes in and out of the country.  There are so many matters that I have to look out for and take care of that; quite frankly, I am tired … I am physically, mentally, and emotionally completely drained and sometimes I just sit here looking at the screen and I realize I have nothing inside of me left. 

Health wise, I’ve had my 6 month follow up and they have found an insignificant cyst, but a cyst nonetheless.  We’ll be monitoring it.  I shouldn’t worry but I do.

There are no doubts; I am behind on my posts.  I used to look forward to this all, and lately I have been completely disinterested in anything. My goodness, I feel like I could stare at the wall for hours on end and not even realize what I was doing!  It’s difficult; I know I miss having that energy, that interest, that excitement, and having that happiness that I used to have when I was blogging on a consistent basis.  Unfortunately, I don’t really know if I can get that back.  I am hoping that I will, but I am I am tired, and I know that I will be tired  regardless of anything I do.  I miss you guys.  I miss having that connection.

Sadly, I believe that I have become lost, and I am not really sure if I can find myself right now.  I’m in disbelief at how  tired I feel, and upset with myself because I don’t even know how else to explain how I feel except for saying how tired I am!  It’s actually very sad.

Perhaps I  am making a mountain out of a hil; however, the truth is I just feel tired all of the time.  I am drained, I am lost, I am empty, and that that’s probably why I can’t seem to function like I did before.  All that I can think of is how empty I feel and how I have nothing  in me right now.  

So I apologise.  I promise that I’ll be back on a regular basis when I feel like I can get everything sorted.  Until that time, I will post what I can and hope that you comment when you can, show me love and support, and miss me lots!

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13 thoughts on “Do You Miss Me?

  1. We absolutely miss you lots and hope you can eventually find the excitement, happiness, and joy that you once had for blogging. Until then, you shouldn’t worry about this. You have a lot on your plate and need to deal with other things right now. Then there is your own health. Take the time you need for yourself, your mother, and your family right now. When you are ready, your readers will still be here. Sending you a big hug. Thinking of you often. Sandy xo

  2. We absolutely miss you lots and hope you can eventually find the excitement, happiness, and joy that you once had for blogging. Until then, you shouldn’t worry about this. You have a lot on your plate and need to deal with other things right now. Then there is your own health. Take the time you need for yourself, your mother, and your family right now. When you are ready, your readers will still be here. Sending you a big hug. Thinking of you often. Sandy xo

  3. I’ve noticed that you haven’t been posting as much. I think I know how you feel, it sounds exactly what I am going through right now. I just sit most of the day feeling a mix of apathy and sadness and then wonder where the day went. I used to be so on top of everything, staying fit and active, eating healthy and was getting things done. Now I seem to be letting myself go and I feel sad, embarrassed and guilty all at the same time. I don’t feel like myself.

    I really hope you feel better soon. Take as much time as you need. You have to come first. Big hugs to you.

  4. Never doubt how you feel, it sounds like depression may have taken it’s toll, and not surprisingly with everything going on. Just know this WILL pass and you WILL find that happiness again! It may not feel like it right now, but this will pass. Take care of yourself, because that’s the one who matters most, to be able to take care of others.

  5. Sounds like you’re having a really tough time lately, and you know, I am always here for you if you need to vent and let it out. I hope you pull from this depression soon. I know how hard it is, but I also know how better life is when positive emotions/actions/feelings/thoughts seep in, just a little.
    I’m sending all the positive vibes I have in me. I know it ain’t much, but it’s all I got. Plus I will keep you close in my prayers.
    (((BIG HUGS))) & ❤

  6. I’m so sorry you’re struggling — thank you for sharing and letting us know. Just take time for you and we’ll all be here when you feel better. (And you will feel better, it just might take more time than you want.) Rest. xo

  7. I feel like 2016 is the year for this…hang in there the end of the year is near. Take all the time you need for yourself! Self care is the most important.

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