How many people do you think are excited to see the year come to an end? Everyone? No one? Some? How about you; are you excited? I’m not so sure if I’m as excited as all of those lovely people.
While; it’s true, I’m fine with time progressing … I don’t have a say in it any way! I’ve been (as you already know) pulled in every direction emotionally. Time lapsed so quickly, half of that time I didn’t even know what was happening. Do I actually want time to go by? Perhaps but just not quickly. I don’t want my mom’s illness to progress, and I certainly don’t want the inevitable to happen! If I could do anything to put off this inevitability, I most certainly would.
While I prepare to ‘let go’ of 2014, I am reluctant to ’embrace’ the New Year. Forgive me. I won’t be celebrating by ringing in the New Year, or partying in style. No. I’ll be quiet, at home, worrying about what is yet to come.