It’s crazy to think that I’ll be without my mother one day. I know it’s inevitable; however, I dread the day’s arrival! Although my mom has been having good moments, it doesn’t mean that these “good moments” are permanent. The reality is that it couldn’t be further from the truth.
Alzheimer’s patients will only have a progression … sometimes faster, sometimes slower … an unavoidable progression. So while I can say that things are good today, I can find a totally different outcome tomorrow …. or even in the next few minutes!
It’s crazy and scary, and I can feel the anxiety eating away at me. Every time the phone rings, I think “oh goodness!” and panic. I hate these feelings, but I guess that anyone (in my shoes) would be feeling the same way.