Do you get time to yourself? What do you do with a that time?
My daughter has gone away on vacation for an entire month! My partner works long, odd hours and I’m left alone with my two cats. Normally stressed, I would relish in my newly acquired “alone time”; however, now facing all of this extra time I really don’t know what to do with myself! Is that weird? I actually freeze “in fear” when I’m alone!
Don’t misunderstand; at first it feels amazing! When my partner is at work, and I look around the empty house I think it’s awesome, wonderful, quiet, and completely what I need! I have time to cook, clean, do errands, and even take care of myself!! Nice; right? Wait for it … give it a second or two … let the quiet linger … that’s when the complete silence kicks in … that’s when I notice how ALONE I am, and I HATE it.
Yes, I can probably get a lot done … but I have a hard time doing stuff because I am alone. I don’t really DO alone well.
I’ll have to push through this; if I want to get anything done, but it’s going to be difficult for me. My ‘To Do’ list is HUGE so I have stuff to do. Getting enough courage to do it all alone is ……………….